CD 3/Stim day 2 - so far so good

It's still early but so far I've had 2 doses of MD Lupron in less than 12 hours and no side effects. I'm HYPER sensitive to all medications and after reading some of the posts on the boards I'm a little afraid of what might happen. Later tonight hubby will give me another dose of the MD Lupron and then we add the Menopur and Follistim.

I'm so glad to have him giving me the shots. I'm not afraid of needles at all but there is just something about having to stick myself that I can't do. Not seeing the needle go in really helps. I'm just too visual of a person plus the one time I tried to do my own shots I did everything you could possibly do wrong WRONG. We now laugh about it but at the time it was a train wreck.

I've decided to do a shot count down, although now that I've written it out it seems like a lot. Until my u/s on Thursday I have the following number of shots left - 16.

3 tonight
4 tomorrow
4 Tuesday
5 Wednesday (because of the left over from 1 follistim vial and then starting a new vial)

Any side effects or anything I can blame attribute to the meds?
Emotional: same, no change yet
Physical: nothing

Update. We just finished the evening shots. I iced for about 40 minutes (unintentionally). After reading something on one of boards about Menppur I told hubby to do the shot slowly. We now know that does NOT work for me, I totally felt it more so tomorrow he's going to go a little faster. I definitely felt the Menopur more than the other 2 shots. I think the Follistim is the one that hurts the least, mainly because I feel the other 2 actually release the meds. So far I survived 1 full day of shots. We'll see how tomorrow goes.

Oh and for anyone who may be reading my blog. PLEASE feel free to post comments, I would love to know if any of this is helping you, or if you have questions or anything. Also I will put this out there now, I swear a lot in my blogs so if that offends you then this may not be the place for you. Here's to day 3.

CD 2 - starting Stims tonight

Baseline u/s went well. The doctor said everything looked great and that we were ready to go. Tonight I will started with a microdose (MD) of Lupron and that's it.  Tomorrow is when I start with all 3 meds. MD Lupron in the morning, MD Lupron in the evening along with the Menopur and Follistim. This means a total of 4 shots a day (I requested the 900IU vial of Follistum to cut down on the number of shots while taking a 300IU dose) but every 3 days or so I will have 5 shots because of the left over in the Follistim vial. Hubby is great about giving me the shots so it helps a lot!
I also have to make sure to ice down first so that the injection site is numb.

Tonight was very emotional, I cried before the shot. Not because I'm afraid of needles but because it means this is all so very real and we are taking this journey again. I just hope this time ends with a beautiful, healthy baby in the end.

I've read a few posts on the boards about Lupron headaches and moodiness. I really hope I don't get either, especially the headaches. Headaches always freak me out and I hate taking any kind of pain meds. I already warned hubby about the potential moodiness. I'm already very emotional from the Estrace and this whole process. My therapist says that I have PTSD from the last cycle which I agree. It was very traumatizing on so many levels. I think not only the obvious; having to seek assistance to conceive as well as it ending in a CM but it also goes back to when I was sick (cancer). That was a hard year and in a way all of that has lead to this. I had the surgery to preserve my fertility so that I could eventually have a child. I also knew that that was no guarantee that I would have a child. I still remember laying in my hospital bed after the ureter reimplantaion, talking to my oncologist and her telling me that it was very possible that even though my reproductive organs were still intact  minus my cervix that I could still struggle to get pregnant. I didn't want to believe her but I always appreciated how straight forward she was about everything. She never sugar coated anything. So even though I've been cancer free for 6 years now and not really had any issues since 2005, it is all still very real for me and going through IVF only adds to it. Thankfully I have my husband who is extremely supportive. I couldn't do this without him right there every step of the way.

Tomorrow is day 2, Easter Sunday, definitely NOT the time to tell my parents yet. Maybe next week, we'll see. I really hope I don't have any side effects from the Lupron or at least not to intense.